Posted Sept. 14, 2005
i have been meaning to write my story
for so long. I guess reading all these beautiful ones
gave me the little push I needed.
I am 36 years old and premenauposal (premenopausal).
My egg supply is very low and obviously my fsh (follicle
stimulating hormon) quite high (19.5), which explains
my 3 recent failed iui
My husband and I have been married for
13 years and had our first daughter on our first anniversary.
Three years later, we were still enjoying our daughter
immensely, but wished to give her a sister. We started
our journey through infertility at my obgyn's office
who put me on clomid and urged me to "stop stressing
about it". We quickly realized that secondary infertility
is a difficult place to be at the doctor can't figure
out why and you get no sympathy from other infertile
couples who hurry to remind you that you already have
Anyway, after joining a proper infertility
clinic, lots of cycles of clomid and 2 failed iui's,
in June 1996 I finally got pregnant and lost the pregnancy
at 10 weeks. After the D&C (Dilatation & Curettage*)
my husband and I made the decision to try again but
with a different doctor.
we transferred our file to Dr Grazi in
Brooklyn, NY and he right away suggested a laparoscopy
to check and eventually remove endemitriosis (endometriosis).
Bingo! the surgery took place in September '97 and in
September '98 our second daughter was born.
Well, it must have been a "buy one
get one free" special because in June 2000 our
third daughter joined the gang. Our youngest is now
5 and I've been back in care since March. I've gone
through 3 cycles of ganal-f (gonal-f) shots followed
by ovidrel (same as ovitrelle) and IUI.
all have failed.we are now thinking about taking the
doctor's advice and moving on to IVF
with genetic testing. My body seem to be a lot older
than I am or feel.
I am scared to go through IVF because
my egg supply is so poor and my chances so low. I wonder
if after having 3 great little treasures I should subject
myself to it. My husband is most supportive and would
go with whatever decision I make, being the abuse is
on my body and not his. Still I worry about him resenting
my decision later when it will be too late. Every month
I hope God will give us one more freebie.
Good luck to all of us and may our dreams
come true, at least in some way.
*Dilatation and curettage, commonly
known as D&C is a process in which
the cervix is dilated and the uterus is cleaned. Today
D&C's are often performed using suction (as opposed
to the more agressive method of scraping the uterus).
One of the main reasons a D&C is performed
is when excess tissue needs to be removed from the uterus,
e.g., after an incomplete miscarriage where not all
the tissue associated with the pregnancy was expelled