Nov 21, 2005
My story is so much like everyone else's...
and then again, so different.
I remember wanting children my whole
life; I always used to say "I'm having all my kids
by the time I'm 30!". Needless to say, that didn't
quite happen. After trying to become pregnant for two
years my marriage basically fell apart. He blamed me...
I blamed him... It was a big mess.
I've had cervical dysplasia* and had
to have three different surgeries on my cervix. The
same year as my last cervical surgery, I was also diagnosed
with Crohn's Disease and Colitis*. The same year I also
had to have my gall bladder out due to gall stones.
I was very very depressed. My doctor then told me (when
I was 28) that if I wanted to have children, I had to
have them now or I wouldn't be able to have them at
all. I had also developed endometriosis*. I freaked
out for awhile, but decided to leave it up to God. I
promised myself that if I'm not married again or have
any marriage prospects by the time I'm 35, then I will
go ahead and be artificially inseminated with donor
sperm and have my own child.
I did end up meeting the man of my dreams
and everything was going well. I told him of my infertility,
and we started trying to conceive for a long 22 months.
The doctor said that even though I have a lot of medical
problems I still have the worst kind of infertility
- unexplained. Just weeks ago I had another surgery
for endometriosis and the removal of ovarian cysts.
While the doctors were in there, they found my intestines
have fused onto my left ovary. Just another obstacle
to deal with!! They separated it and it took me a while
We have been going to a fertility specialist
for a year, but I didn't want to get treatment until
we got married. We were supposed to get married last
year, but now my partner tells me that he's in no hurry...
Next week I'm 35 years old and I still do not have the
child I've been so desparately wanting.
I have come to the decision to stick with
my original plan. I've been thinking about this for
7 years. I completed all the proper paperwork and picked
out my sperm donor. I plan to be artifically inseminated
in October 2005. I'm so afraid it will not work... and
also scared it will. I'm so different from everyone
else, because I'm alone. There must be other women who
are single and had a baby through the use of donor sperm...
I wish there were more places to turn for advice/support.
Good luck to everyone else out there
and God bless you and your babies!
Cervical dysplasia - a premalignant
lesion associated with human papillomavirus (HPV) infection
which, over time, can turn cancerous. (see
& Colitis - a chronic inflammatory disorder
that usually affects the lower small intestine (the
ileum) or the colon, but can affect the entire gastrointestinal
Endometriosis - Growth
of endometrial tissue outside the uterus. The tissue
may attach itself to the reproductive organs or to other
organs in the abdominal cavity. Each month the endometrial
tissue inbreeds with the onset of menses. The resultant
irritation causes adhesions in the abdominal cavity
and in the fallopian tubes. Endometriosis may also interfere
with ovulation and with the implantation of the embryo.