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Faith's Story

It took me a long time to get pregnant. When I eventually did, with the help of ikaclomin (clomid), I had several miscarriages. Eventually, I did indeed give birth, after a long painful journey.

Now that we are ready for another baby, I had so hoped that maybe the second time around things might just be easier but once again I am on ikaclomin -- after waiting a year for it to happen naturally and now too I am waiting and only hope that it'll happen soon.

Throughout this impatient wait of ours, my husband and I have decided to try to use this time and disappointment to our benefit. I know that in the end I will conceive and have another wonderful baby, - but until then I don't just want to waste my time on being sad and depressed. I believe that we can use this time and this difficult experience to grow, both as a couple and as individuals. I don't want to look back on this time and feel that all I did was cry and get frustrated. Instead, I would like to transform this hardship into something positive. It is strange that three of the great foremothers of the Jewish people – Sarah, Rebecca and Rachel all had fertility problems....but they chose to develop themselves through their pain and when they did finally have children (Isaac, Jacob, and Joseph), these children become the greatest people in Jewish history and are recognized as true tzadikim (righteous men). I believe that I too will have special children, but I must better myself and be the special parent who is worthy of bearing such a child. Therefore, throughout our pain we have chosen things to improve on, there's no shortage of ways to improve... Whether it involves giving more charity, being more helpful to others, or trying to gossip less... and the list goes on... we continue to try to just become better!

I once learned that if someone else has the same problem as you, that if you pray for them - you will be rewarded with what you request. There are many women out there who are having fertility problems and I believe that if each of us says a prayer for the other, we will all be blessed with beautiful children and we will have become better people.

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