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Fiona's Story
Posted June 24, 2010

After yet another round of clomid & pregnyl & yet another negative pregnacy test this morning, i came looking online for other women's support going through the same thing. My hubby is great, but they (husbands) really don't know how it feels, that gutting feeling when you get a negative when you've convinced yourself you're pregnant because you're getting different pains down below...

My story is as follows: I conceived my first child naturally at 19 it wasn't planned but she was a blessing. At 22, we decided to plan baby no 2. We were trying & trying but nothing happened. I went to a fertility clinic & they started me on provera (because my periods never came on their own) & clomid 50 mg. I got pregnant on the first round, my baby boy was born early - at 34 weeks - but was fine after 2 weeks in neonatal care. That was 5 yrs ago.

Last year we started to try, but nothing again. We went to see the same fertility specialist, he put me on clomid started with 25mg then 50mg then 100mg then 150mg, 8 months now. Last month I got a pregnyl shot on day 14, went in 4 ultrasound on day 22. The doctor said something seemed to have happened, I'd been getting pains down low like I had during early pregnancy before - shooting pains etc, so i was convinced that this month I was finally pregnant, but I'm due to get AF (aunt flow, my period) and I took a test - negative though :(, keeping in mind I know aunt flow won't come on her own, so it will be more provera, more ultrasounds, more shots & boy that pregnyl shot hurts!!

My fertility doctor keeps on at me for my weight - I'm 9 stone (126 lbs / 57kg) & I'm 5" 6 !!! I'm perfectly healthy!! Plus I keep getting "You're young, you've two children already!!" I know that, but for a women to feel she cant conceive makes her feel that what makes her a women isn't working. It's awful when you feel that you may never have any more children!! Who wouldn't be upset by feeling that way, even if you have 2 or 4 children! I've been thinking of changing doctors, but we'll see what he has to say this month. If I've no real answers, I'll go elsewhere, I mean, I haven't even been told why I'm not conceiving ! feel free to contact me - I could do with giving/receiving support ! :) ty

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