Posted April 19, 2005 (updated June 19, 2007)
Here is an account of our journey through
I am 33 and my dh is 32, we have been
ttc (trying to conceive) for over 4 years.
My dh (dear husband) has low sperm count
and abnormal morphology. I have endometriosis and an
ovulation disorder. I have also been through a MVA (motor
vehicle accident) at an early age which resulted in
three surgeries: spinal fusion, liver surgery and gallbladder
removal. I was also treated for Hepatitis C back in
1999 - 2000.
We have done 7 IUI's, the first 6 in
2003, the most recent performed on April 6, 2005. We
will find out the results of this IUI on April 18th.
It has been a very tough journey for
us with its ups and downs. The hardest thing about it
is while you are being forced to be childless, your
friends move on with their life and get pregnant with
their first and sometimes second child while you are
wanting just to have your first. It's hard to understand
why it is happening to you, and there is no answer to
that question. The one thing that I do know is that
God has a plan for each and every one of us, and knows
what is best for us, and I have to cling to that truth.
It doesn't make it fair. One of my favorite verses in
a Christian song is, "The beauty of Grace is that
it makes life not fair!" And it is so true. God
never promised us anything, only that He would never
leave us or forsake us. I don't know what His plan is
for our lives, but I will continue to seek Him through
We are planning on doing one more IUI
and then move on to IVF. We are only going to do one
IVF, and if it is unsuccessful, we will move to adoption.
We feel like one IVF will give us some closure as to
whether we can get pg or not. We don't want to get caught
up in continuing to pour out money into it, when we
could be there for a child who truly needs a mommy and
a daddy. We know that we can love someone else's child
as much as we would love our own.
Feel free to
email me if you need someone to talk to, vent to,
cry to, rejoice with... sometimes that's all we need
when going through this journey.
God bless you all!
Update from June 19, 2007
I wanted to give an update on my story that I shared about 2-3 years ago: My husband and I have tried to conceive for 6+ years. Since I wrote our story on this site, we have experienced one IVF, without success. That was an extremely difficult time because we thought for sure this would work for us. But, as my RE had thought, my eggs were of bad quality and there was minimal chance of them fertilizing and becoming a baby. This basically "sealed the deal" for us and let us know that we may not be able to conceive and deliver a biological child of our own.
So, after much prayer, we decided to persue adoption. We started the process in February 2006, putting together our family profile and applications to different agencies. By April 6, 2006, we were matched with a birthmom who was due to deliver September 29th. We got to meet the birthmom and spend some time with her and her two daughters. We were so blessed to be able to be in the delivery room when our beautiful baby boy was born! It was so awesome and unbelievable! This baby was going to be ours! Finally, I was going to be a mommy!
Now, I cannot imagine my life without this little boy. He is our true blessing and our gift from God! My husband and I joke that we could have never made a child this beautiful! There are many times that people will stop me to look at him and tell me how happy he looks and that he looks just like me. I don\'t even correct them! Those who know that he is adopted tell me how blessed he is to be a part of our wonderful, loving family, but I correct them to say how blessed I am to be a part of his life. Only God knew what the future was going to hold for our family! It was tough getting there, but boy was he worth the wait!
If you are interested in talking with me more about infertility, adoption, etc., please feel free to email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I pray God's peace upon you as you go through this journey. But, please know that there is a plan out there for each of you, it just might be different from the plan you have laid out. Be hopeful, be strong & be courageous!
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