Posted June 18, 2005
I was 21 years old when I found out I
had breast cancer. I couldn't believe that it was happening
to me. The next few years of my life I focused on remission.
With all the drugs from chemotherapy, the doctors advised
that I would have to wait 5 years after being told that
I was in remission before trying to get pregnant. At
the time, I thought little of it since I wasn't dating
A year and a half after my initial dignosis of cancer,
I met my husband. We fell in love on our first date.
A year after being married we tried to get pregnant.
As months passed and nothing was happening, I was worried
that the chemotherapy had ruined all of my eggs. My
husband and I decided after 9 months of trying we should
see a RE to make sure everything was 'alright'. We went
through all the testing and found out the my eggs were
perfectly healthy and there was no problem with me.
Then my husband had his sperm
analysis and found that he had low sperm count,
no motility and the morphology was not good either.
We were told it would be highly unlikely that we could
ever conceive naturally. At the same time, we were told
that the only option available for us would be IVF but
before we started an IVF cycle I would have to receive
clearance from a breast oncologist. So, more testing
continued with my breast oncologist to confirm I was
still cancer free and there were no tumors lurking.
He approved us for IVF treatment but only approved 3
cycles. He informed us that the drugs used for IVF can
cause breast cancer and in my case could cause a recurrence.
This was a lot on our shoulders. Not only were we informed
that we could not have children but our options to try
were limited to 3.
We decided to try with our first IVF cycle, knowing
that putting myself through this could cause cancer.
But I was desparate! I wanted a biological baby of my
own. Everyone around me was getting pregnant and as
each friend would call with their good news, my spirits
were being broken.
Our first IVF cycle resulted in a pregnancy. I thought
I was one of those lucky few that took only 1 IVF cycle
to get pregnant. Unfortunately, this pregnancy was not
ours to keep. After 7 weeks from that glorious day being
told that we were pregnant, I miscarried. I was devastated.
I couldn't believe that it happened to me. I thought
that since I had beat cancer I wasn't allowed to have
any more devastating things happen in my life. I was
completely destroyed. My husband was very supportive
and we grieved the loss of our little baby boy together...yes
a boy...we received results from our D &C stating
that they knew the sex of our baby.
As each day passed after the miscarriage, another reminder
of that horrible day would come up. A doctors bill,
a note from a friend, parents calling to check up on
us. The more 'reminders' we received the more I wanted
to try another IVF cycle.
We started our 2nd IVF cycle with the hopes that this
one will result in a full term pregnancy. We are very
realistic about our chances but we are praying that
this one will work for us. Please keep us in your thoughts
and prayers as we need all the help we can get.
We hope to achieve our dreams along with everyone achieving