posted July 13, 2005
My IVF journey started a few months ago
with the hysterosalpingogram (HSG) -- The procedure
where they put the dye in to see if there are any blockages.
Everything looked great. It was weird to see how small
a uterus is. It looked nothing like the pictures on
the wall at the OB/GYN. Anyway, after my procedure,
I got up to clean up and leave when my blood pressure
dropped. I get vesa-vegal (vasovagal*) response. I threw
up all over the X-ray room and almost fainted. The nurse
wouldn't let me faint -- she kept telling me to keep
my eyes open. I really didn't like her at that moment.
However, she knew what she was doing. I was scared and
panicked. Thank goodness I had a friend with me who
has been through this procedure before. She was very
comforting as I was feeling so vulnerable. The hospital
kept me for 4 hours. I was exhausted.
Next came the polyp removal. I was terrified to go
under a general which my Dr. ordered for this procedure.
Smart thinking. I gave birth to a 12mm polyp. The Dr.
gave me pictures of it so I thought it would be an interesting
start to the baby book. I healed quickly and the ice
cream I had that night tasted too good.
Then came the needles. We started IVF.
It took forever to get to this point. It went really
fast after that. The huge box of needles, meds, alcohol
pads, etc came Fed Ex. I felt lost. What was it that
nurse Shannon told us needed to go in the fridge?? What
should not be cooled?? How do I do this??? I knew I
didn't have the credentials to do this. I'm an MSW,
not an MD! I figured it all out. Sorted all the needles,
meds, etc. Put the red biohazard bin in a cute basket
as to not make my bathroom look like a clinic.
We started with Lupron. My husband gave the first
shot. We were in this together. It was symbolic for
us. Then came the Luverius (Luveris) and
Gonal F. 3 shots a night. Not too bad. My skin looked
like a used pin cushion with some brusing. Ok, now the
MF shot. The hCG. Yahhh, we are almost there. When my
husband finished, I asked him "Did you do it yet?"
Ice is the key!!! Then the retrieval. Went well. 16
eggs retrieved. 8 mature enough to inseminate. Great!
3 days later they put in 3 "A+" embryos. Now
the wait and bed rest. Booorrrrring! Got through another
Dan Brown book and some. Finally, the preg. test. That
was yesterday. The call came in. I excitedly answered
the phone with a "Do you have good news???"
"I'm sorry Sally, the test was negative and there
were no embryos we were able to freeze". My heart
I sank into my couch and the tears rushed down my face.
I called my husband at work. Sadly, he finished his
overtime. I thank God that I have a wonderful husband
and that we have a great marriage! We learned that you
HAVE to be in the same place and supportive of one another
with this process. Neither of you can be selfish of
We don't know what we are going to do at this point.
Another cycle? Go to China to adopt a wonderful, beautiful
baby girl. (I have a niece from China and she is way
cool!) Today, we grieve our loss.
Best of luck to all of you starting in this process.
I have no regrets! My suggestion to everyone who is
thinking about IVF or has been through it, get the book
A Few Good Eggs. Cute reading about this
incredible journey of IVF.
*Vasovagal response -
A condition in which the person experiences a slow pulse,
a fall in blood pressure, and sometimes fainting or
convulsions. It thought to be caused by a sudden stimulation
of the vagus nerve.