Posted March 29, 2008
After having read encouraging stories
of struggle and then ultimate success I decided to share
my story of our ongoing difficult journey, with all.
I have struggled all through my life,
however the journey of fertility has by far been the
most difficult one. It is not just the journey but the
new mothers and "on the drop of a hat"pregnancies
around us that gets us stressed and depressed.
Our journey started off in August of
2006 when we started trying to have a baby on our vacation.
The trying went on for 1 year and by then we had all
our friends get pregnant, deliver a baby and now even
celebrate their 1st birthdays and all we do is throw
baby showers for others and decorate for OTHER childrens
We started on clomid and HCG shots in
the start of 2007 and in 4 months my OBGYN gave up and
reffered me to an RE in northern California. I cried
that day, at my OBGYNs office and was very embarrassed
for doing that.
Then all the tests and blood work took
up close to 3 months and we relaxed, attended more baby
showers and baby birthdays and cried ourselves to bed.
After the test we were put into the category
of "unexplained infertility". My RE started
me on IUI without
Clomid since I had a cyst on one of my ovaries due to
the follicle not having ruptured last month because
I did not take a HCG shot the previous month - I do
not spontaneously ovulate. The first IUI
with one follicle was unsuccessful. So I decided to
not lose hope and be strong and try acupunture and TCM.
The acupuncturist told me to eat cooked food and veggies,
to have lamb before ovulation and poultry after ovulation
plus I was on 100 mg Clomid (with no side effects) and
on TCM herbs, Walah ! I had a 21mm follicle but just
one and was ready for IUI on day 17 after being triggered
on day 16. I started on progestrone suppositories on
day 19th. I was nauseous, dizzy, tired and spotted on
day 8-9th dpiui. I was soooo sure I was pregnant, just
to see spotting on day 13th. Today is day 13 and I am
very sad, I am cramping really badly and bleeding more
than spotting. This IUI is a failed one too.
I believe in God and the belief is slowly
diminishing. However I do beleive that no one can change
what is supposed to happen to you. So me and my husband
are just hanging in there, hoping for a miracle to happen.
Hoping that one morning even we will
get a positive and that even we will
have a baby shower and the first baby birthday. Please
pray for me and I pray for every women out there going
through this journey and I stand up and bow down to
these BRAVE women.
TONS of baby dust to all of us.
We all will be fine !