Posted April 3, 2006, updated May 4,
My husband and I have been together for
12 years. We are now 30 years old and nearing 31 in
the next few months.
We tried to get pregnant 4 years ago
but after 4 months of crying and hurt we decided to
postpone and wait until it was 'meant to be'. We never
fell pregnant. About 6 months later our lives changed
and we decided that we would wait a few years before
trying for a baby. We started trying again this year.
Although, I know it has not been a long
time I have always had a gut feeling something is not
quite right in my body. In the past I had problems with
blood clotting and a bad abortion when we were 21 years
old which had to be done twice. Anyway, I started preparing
for our baby 6-8 months ago and found out that I have
endometriosis on both ovaries. My right side is about
6cm and my left which has grown in the past month is
now 3cm. My dr wanted to remove my right ovary because
she was scared it would rupture and she thought it was
most probably not working anyway. I did not want to
lose my ovary, so I tried Chinese herbal medicine and
acupuncture. I did this for about 3 months against my
After 3 months of time-consuming and expensive
treatments, the herbal medicine was showing no signs
of getting rid of the lumps, but I did feel more balanced
hormonally and had more energy. I am happy that I used
this procedure. I still wonder whether if I had continued
to use it the endometriosis would have gone away. I
can say though that in the time I was using the herbal
medicine and acupuncture my lumps did not increase in
size. It was 3 months later that my smaller left side
grew bigger. After stopping the herbal medicine, my
husband and I decided to start trying sooner than we
had originally planned.
For the first month we tried, it was difficult
to know exactly when I was ovulating because my periods
are irregular. I also show no signs of fertile mucus
which I remember getting when I was younger (though
at the time I wasn't aware what it was). It would be
nice to knows these things (fertility
awareness) as a way to prevent pregnancy and to
know how to enhance our chances of pregnancy. Why don't
they teach us these things in school?
We didn't get pregnant the first month.
I was fine with this and did not cry but then there
were days when I would cry and think the world was over
if we couldn't ever get pregnant. I feel for all women
out there. It's such a horrible thing to go through.
I haven't even gone through this for very long and its
eating away at me. I hope all women out there remain
strong and hopeful that it will happen some day and
if not there are so many babies out there that need
our love and dont receive it.
By month two, my dr did tests of my ovulating.
It showed that I was in fact ovulating. Good news. Then
we were told that my mucus and my husbands sperm were
not compatible and my mucus was infact killing all sperm.
So our chances (of conceiving naturally) are pretty
much zero. This was a blow to us after just hearing
the good news about me ovulating. I was in tears and
felt it was the end of the world. My husband could always
have a baby with someone else. I thought of running
away and leaving him so he could continue his life with
someone who could give him the children he has always
wanted. It was a day or two of these silly thoughts
and then by day 3 I felt better more stable and able
to see that we still have a lot of chances to have our
baby. Its such a trying time.
The following month my dr kept an eye
on my body. I had my tubes checked to see if they were
blocked or damaged. The test was successful and I found
out that my tubes were fine. I found this a big relief.
The following week I started to take clomid. I took
the pill for 5 days (monitored) and then had injections
for the next 7 days (more than the norm) My body took
the clomid well I had no pains other than bloating on
the last few days when I was beginning to show signs
My dr found that my right and my left
ovaries were still working and producing follicles (where
the eggs are) this was great news and I am so happy
I did not have my ovary removed.
We did a IUI procedure which was not
painful at all. I felt a slight twinge for about 5 seconds.
The procedure was quick and stress free. I was left
to rest, with my hips elevated, for about 30 mins and
then I went to work about 2 hours later.
Now its the waiting
process. I have about 2 weeks beofre finding out
if it worked. Please all of you keep positive. I know
it's difficult. Only last night I cried and cried. I
hope that all our dreams will come true some day.
Update (May 4, 2006):
After writing my story my husband and
I had some wonderful news. The IUI procedure, our first,
worked and we are now pregnant! I am in my 7th week
and doing great. We are both still shocked and cannot
believe our luck. I always tell women about the wonderful
help we had from our wonderful dr and how there is hope
out there for all of us. Please keep trying girls, never